It has taken me 5 months to post anything, although I've written several drafts that just never got tweaked enough to be published (in my opinion).
On April 22nd, at 11 weeks 4 days, we lost our little "Victory." From the beginning, Aaron and I thought we were having a girl; however, when we go on to our own rewards, we won't be disappointed to find out that Victory was actually a boy. The Lord literally gave us victory and hope when we got pregnant last February. After almost 11 years of marriage, 4 of those years actively trying for a baby, I was pregnant.
We hadn't gotten around to trying IVF or any other fertility treatments. We were just going to play it by ear and see where the Lord took us.
After 1 1/2 years of trying, I quit my job. I'd wanted my sole place of employment to be the home-front for a long time: we thought this might help loosen everything up & get to working in the baby-making department. Alas, after almost 2 years, although I was enjoying working my dream job, I felt certain that I should be adding to our financial future while waiting to get pregnant. I finally started accepting the fact that I would get pregnant when God wanted me to, whether I was working or not.
I was able to get my old job back (long story, but God was in ALL the details). I was happy & more focused than I'd ever been at the office, knowing that I was doing a good thing for my & Aaron's future.
And then, when I wasn't looking, I got pregnant.
So, thank you, Victory, for the joy and hope you gave your mommy and daddy--joy like we'd never felt before. We trust your heavenly Father in all things. He is taking care of you so much better than we could. You will never know pain or heartache. You are with the One that makes all things new.
"He giveth and taketh away. Blessed be the name of the Lord."
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